Life like a flower

That is how I feel now, knows that desire to vanish? From flee to a strange place? Neither could I explain, the more I feel like an ant, walking in the midst of giants and sometimes as a giant in the middle of formigas. I spent a situation where I felt quite humiliated, but I would not say that this is the reason for my immense sadness. Can I choose to be happy? This life is so complicated situations ... It has so painful ... so difficult ... Is like the death makes me cry ... I do not know what to do more! Actually, is a set of problems that comes with years sucking my forces, and when it seems that I am recovered! There is another situation to have to face that is not a weak person, but sometimes as any mortal, assim.Estou I am beginning to believe that the extreme changes frighten me and now the monster of change in my personal life appeared again to frighten me and I feel lost, not knowing what to do or actually, without courage to do what I need... It will be unfortunate that we must live forever? I discovered that the loneliness is a choice, and that there are various types of loneliness, I think there is more sad is that for lack of option also exists that you live despite being monitored and I think that is what chose for me" I wanted to talk ... but I am alone ...